Hope

I went to Hope Cafe last night.

When I first got there, it was empty.

I thought I was in the wrong place, or I was there the wrong day or something.

But gradually, friendly faces I hadn't seen in ages started to arrive.

And we sat in comfy sofa chairs.

While I was waiting for the "Lesson" to start, we began to talk.

I naturally started with playful banter and jokes.

My outer shell. My random questions.

But soon, we began to really talk about purpose. Jesus. Ministry.

While I waiting for something to start, it had already started. We never did have a "Lesson" that night.We just grew. I ended up getting questions answered, and getting some perspective on my future ministry.

I was exactly where and when God wanted me.

Love him in the midst of the seek.

-Karl Lentz (Hillsong NYC)

I finally understand what Karl meant by that first hand at the Hope Cafe.

I may not know exactly what kind of pastor I will be, or what kind of me I will be...

But now I set this rule in place ,

that despite being on this search for purpose

no matter where it takes me

no matter how much time it takes from me

no matter who is put in my life, and who I gradually lose contact with

I will love God in the midst of the seek.

I will love what God has put in my life.

I will truly enjoy.

I found my hope, not in the destination but the seek.